Marooned.

Academic year ended 2009 is ending soon! Less than 48 hours and it’ll be freedom. It’ll be party time. (Ok, I know I’ve already been partying, but its different knowing I don’t have a 20 page report & 20min presentation nagging me at the back of my head.)

It’ll also mean JAPAN. (Skips around happily, and impatiently.)

Although I wish the world were smaller, so that I can just pop to another country in a matter of minutes, and costlessly, its impossible. Whilst the internet has flattened the world so, it still has its many inabilities. But be happy as a clam at what I have got in my hand already, shall remember lessons to self.

My lovely girls are home! I had Jinping & Shermaine back a few weeks ago. Then Friday brought Jiaying home. And today it was Michelle. (: Happy happy! And happy friends make me happy too! Like my Mayjean getting her dreams spot. YAY!

The gang, Mich, Brynner & Jeremy, – short of Jason, plus Kieren, and Vick later on – was damn fun. (: Ivin’s then itouch around the kitchen table whilst Jeremy & I rushed out our project. Then playing wii – Raving Rabbids TV Party – awesome.

I think friendship is able to be sustained when friends complement each other. The definition of complement is to bring to perfection, improve upon. And I guess what I mean is that friends have to be able to make each other more of themselves, make them comfortable in their own skins when they are together. I also guess it takes patience and understanding, a lot of both.

Friends don’t come easy. And friends, I mean real real good, close friends. I think I take very long to warm up to people, and be comfortable enough to confide, spout nonsense, share ideas, question philosophical insights together, discuss love, life, everything under the sun.

Have you ever had the feeling, that when you are in a roomful of friends, but you just feel like leaving, walk out the door and not turn back. Its like there’s no reason to stay, and it feels as if no one will bother anyway. But then, at the same time, its like you feel the bonds and the responsibility to some in the room, and you don’t leave. Maybe its peer pressure you’ll feel, maybe its societal norms, maybe its the impression you believe you will be leaving behind, so you stay.

I don’t think I make much sense, hais, but yeah, I’m weird.

On another note, I got a whole stack of books from the library today, 8 books – whoopdeedoo – its holiday double borrowing limit time! I finally can go back to reading nonsense and enjoy reading again. Its a funny story how I ended up at the library with my mummy. But its nice to spend some time with my mum, after all the studying, not being home much. I miss my dad too.. its like we stay together, but we hardly see each other much. I think my parents need to retire and start to enjoy life soon. Life’s too short.

I MISS MY STARBUCKS BUDDY ):

It’ll be so awesome to sit at starbucks with our books, our drinks, our breakfast/snack, the sun, our shades, music playing in the background. The feeling of reading a book is nice: smelling the book as you open it, the physical presence and weight of a book in your hand, the excitement of flipping the pages to get to the next word, next paragraph.

I haven’t slept before 3am for the past 4 nights, and today too – Sunday: mahjong; Monday: Wii; Tuesday: K; Wednesday: Mambo; Thursday: K. I am so going to have to readjust for my internship starting next week! Yikes!

No photos of my embarrassing wii-ing at Jason’s – its all on facebook, enough embarrassment there, no need to do it to myself here. So here are photos from post-exams mambo 2008! (: sepia photos courtesy of mich! thanks babe – especially for her sneaky swift phototaking abilities (sorry, too paiseh to put the photo up here… a bit too obvious. lalala). heehee.

From top: Faves (Jeremy, Me, Brynner, Jason, MIch); Mich & Me; Me & Mich; Szewei, Me, Brendon; Me & my hawt shoes. (:

Jerry, Me, Brendon! Haven’t seen them in super the damn long. My long lost UppThomson – cambodia ocip friends. (:

A photo I took with my handphone when I stepped out of my gate, and looked up at the sky:

Gorgeousness. Beauty, at its purest. It looked a gazillion times more beautiful than my camera could snap.

None of my results are out yet.. a bit worrying, but I guess I can’t do anything, so I shall not worry about it anymore. Just leave everything, and disappear for a few days and recuperate.

Off to Malacca tomorrow! (: Excited.

I’m watching something about Disneyland, in Management Science class. Queuing is of utmost interest to me. I woke up with a headache. This isn’t helping.

But it reminds me of my Hong Kong trip 2 years ago with Mayjean when we went to Disneyland and was disappointed, especially after my initial position of not wanting to go, I still don’t know why we did. And we met up with Mak there too, that was fun. I WANT TO GO ON A HOLIDAY.  I want the mango drink from HK.

I just realised that everytime Mayj & I go on holiday, we meet Mak somewhere. We went to Cambridge for a visit last summer!   MAK. We love you!

Just slightly more than 2 weeks before summer break begins, slightly more than one week to cram for the exams which are still in a mess. Year 2 is ending. Time is passing by too quickly. I don’t think I learnt anything as yet, I don’t know what I’ve been doing with my life in the past 8 months. I think I still have not satisfied the things I wanted to do this term. Failed resolutions once again.

Sometimes I wonder if I believe in fate and all that, with regards to the talk about find that someone. Everyone says that one day it will happen, if its meant to be it will be etc. So we don’t get to do anything about it? I think its about a feel, but my feelings are always wrong. I am that vain. And yes, as my sister says, boys are rubbish, better off without them. I don’t even remember what its like being with one. Maybe if fate is to be believed in, I’m just waiting in queue for my turn to find him, or for him to find me.

I think. I scare people. My friend told me guys don’t like girls being too forward. And he says that times when I act all annoying and girly are what guys like. So I say, wtf.

Into something that is all consuming.

I’m in school early in the morning, before anyone’s classes start because my dad fetched me, so my arrivals depend on how early he wishes to leave the house.

I am sitting in the open, with the sun slowly creeping across the sky and spreading some of its warmth on me. But I am still feeling a little chilly. This is wrong! How am I going to survive the lectures later in the SR? I’m going to freeze to death. For today, I shall stay away from air-conditioning.

I was wearing my jacket in Gill yesterday, and Joel gave me a funny look. I was cold! And this picture is for Jacki:

Jacki & Monica… Nice eh? Behind the white gauzy curtain on the right, they were conducting the DM class. Whilst I study, or attempted to study, in solo, which was quite productive: reorganized the scuba equipment research for Jacki, did a little bit more of the FA term proj, started answering the BizLaw presentation questions that I got to send to my group soon, answered Rita’s FA questions which was all the FA studying I did.

I want to go on trips alone, like my NahJinPing who is going to Dublin alone! Like how cool and scary is that. But she is one cool army chick, so she can handle it. (:  I want to go on a holiday, in the December break, but I can’t decide. Janice and I thought of getting all our friends (whom we referred to as our term 1 friends) and going somewhere like Bali and slacking together.

And I think I need to once and for all give up. Just walk away and don’t look back. And not think too much.

-jo- enough is enough. [ootgr] says:
just yesterday i bumped into this british dude.
-jo- enough is enough. [ootgr] says:
and i went, “paiseh.”
-jo- enough is enough. [ootgr] says:
and he stared at me blankly.

I laughed non-stop. I love jo. She just cheers me up when everything is going wrong. (: