Marooned.

I must get out of this impasse.
I need to stick to my resolve.
I need to make up my mind.

I tell my friends to go for it in their situations, but I stay by the sidelines in mine.
Its a matter of knowing the game, I suppose, and in this game of mine, I’ll lose.

Simply put.
I have to matter. I have to mean something more.
To be cared for.

For the record, I’m not looking for marriage – yet. (Are you crazy??!)

One kiss
& I’m lost.

I’m lost.
I’m trapped.
In my own decisions.
And indecisions.
Which direction does regret lie?

A weak heart.
Doesn’t work without emotional
Support.
But from him, that, I won’t
Receive.

After being told I was ridiculous,
That what I was meant to do was
Obvious
And that I was being worried about.

I said the hard words,
but the heart won’t listen.

Don’t I fucking deserve better than this.

You lie next to me
and it feels like
A sweet dream.
But to you, I’m
nothing.

The Atomic Bomb Dome
5/12/2009
Hiroshima

A stark and melancholic reminder of the horror of the atomic bomb dropped directly above this building. It serves as a reminder of the atrocities of war and the innocent deaths that were taken away.

A poignant remnant of a city devastated by just a drop of a bomb. That mushroom cloud. An experimental bombing.

Its like day & night.
They meet only at twilight and dawn.
They attract and yet the instances pass.

Its like light & dark.
You can’t have one without the other.
And you can’t have one and the other.