Marooned.

This empty feeling in the pit of my stomach may be hunger. Or it may be a combination of other things.

Stole this from Mayjean. (:

Two years ago. In Madrid. In the summer. In blissful post-The Killers moments.

Time flies.

“O, call back yesterday, bid time return”
- Shakespeare, “Richard II”

That I’ve been walking
I’ve been thinking
I’ve been looking at you
Sideways.

I’ve been moving
I’ve been dreaming
I’ve been looking at you
Sideways.

- Sideways by Let’s Go Sailing

I have, haven’t I.

Tonight, Mayjean and I were reminscing our Eurotrip07, and it was awesome. I seriously miss those times, running around various cities fairly aimlessly, poking our heads into interesting looking places, strolling about old walkways, peeping into cute stores, sipping tea, slipping off our sandles and enjoying the summer in Europe. I miss those times, seriously. It seemed like a lifetime ago, a peaceful, carefree time. I miss our happy faces, our burdenless grins, our drunkenly gleeful moments too. It was a blast. We had the same urge at the same moment, across cable-optical-lines, on our instant messengers, telling each other how much we missed those times, about a few seconds apart from each other. Then, we begun our facebook scour for funny, awesome photos, photos that made us remember the moments like it was only yesterday, moments vividly etched into our memories.

Whilst we strongly felt the compulsion to do it all over again, reality set in – school, money, internships, length of available time, family, etc. But, if its not Europe, we are going to go somewhere, anywhere this summer. We didn’t go last year, because I was in Scandi, and she was going off to Germany.

On a super excited note, Mayj and I are off to watch “A Winter’s Tale” tomorrow! (: We’re very excited to see Ethan Hawke. Teehee.

Do you know how it feels,
Every time you say goodbye.
- 方大同

I don’t think it means anything much anymore. But at the same time, I think the seeds have germinated. And I know there’s no turning back, and I’m on the tracks of a roller coaster that won’t stop till it has done its share of loops and turns and drops.

I was semi-tricked into going to a media launch for a bar by Nartz, and ended up drinking way too much alcohol. Prime Society Bar. It was good infusions and cocktails though. I highly recommend you try those exotic flavours. They had a whiskey cocktail – made from the 6th best whiskey in the world, 1st outside Scotland – and it was amazing. You taste the whiskey, but you don’t get the evil aftereffects that resemble a kick to the head after downing it, and it was yummy to boot. It was so smooth, it was evil.

I had those drinks on an empty stomach, had to sip the shots and cocktails in fear of getting tipsy. There were awesome hors d’oeuvres to try and mitigate the effects of the alcohol. It was very interesting an event, met interesting people, chatted a bit. And then, guilt from not studying for my test tomorrow morning hit, and I decided it was time to head home.

The past week or so was spent going to talks, mainly regarding entrepreneurship. And they were very enlightening. Its really making me want to be a dreamer that does. I always felt that there are 2 types of dreamers: the dreamer that does, and the dreamer that just is. I think for now, I’m a dreamer that just is, not doing anything about the ideas I have. I voice them out, pooh-pooh them, and decide that its not worth the effort or the risk to take it all the way. But after all the talks, and talking about it to friends, I really start to see a different picture. One thing that is most important is commitment and passion, which probably is overused, but so true. At the same time, I definitely can’t forget that practicality and applicability of the idea too. I could have an amazing idea, be passionate about it, but be impractical for this climate, this country or whatever – and it will fail. On the other hand, not too practical to think that nothing will work out unless its a proven formula, because there’s nothing innovative about that!

So you see, that’s what I want to be – a dreamer that does.