Marooned.

I think I’m high on cameras.

Got the Nikon D60, DSLR, today!! (ok yesterday since its already 230am) I’m so excited about it, its amazing. I want to bring it everywhere, if only it could be flat packed. I LOVE IT. I’ve been dreaming of the day I’ll get my hands on a digital SLR since forever and ever. Its so unbelievable, it still hasn’t sunk in.. I LOVE MY D60!! OMG.

Holga from Nartz and Huis for my birthday, I’m loving it too. Its a 35mm, much more convenient. Its a new model, so there aren’t any light leaks or things like that, losing the essence of the toy camera-ness, but heck, its 35mm, saves me truckloads of trouble! Screwed up my first roll of film though, used an ISO400 film, causing a lot of over-exposure when I though I had to use the Night-mode. The bloody guide told me to! Obviously they have different amount of light where it was written!

The Vintage Kodak Brownie Six-16, is in the mail.. somewhere. I got it for USD$0.99. But of course shipping is a multiple of that, many many times over. Its cool though, saw photos taken through it, very interesting. Just got to figure out how to use film for it. The internet is my best friend!

I need to stop overindulging. Time to save money. (Hah, who am I kidding. Still got so many things to buy for my Scandinavian trip.)

I’m older, and supposedly a tad wiser. An adult.

Here’s to my first 21 years of life.

Had a fun birthday bash, thank you everyone. (: I’m really, really loving my gifts. I was dumbfounded several times with amazement & disbelief, and I seriously laughed out loud once. It was great! I love you guys!

Happy Birthday Nah Jinping! Here’s to turning 21 together, in different continents, time zones, but on the same day. (: Fly high my friend, reach for the stars.

Sometimes I just want to hop onto a bike, preferably a motorbike cos I’m lazy but it requires a license. I just want to go fast on the roads with the wind in my face. I just want to feel alive, and have nothing running through my head. Just living. Just being in the moment. That’s what I feel when I take roller-coaster rides, and thats what I love to do the most. I always loved sitting on the fast rides, feeling the adrenaline rush, the fear and the speed and the wind rushing through my hair.

I just feel like crawling into a dark corner, hug my knees and hide from the world. I used to hide under my desk when I felt like being alone, liking the sense of security of physically being in a small space.

I feel like a dumbass because there’s naught to worry in my life. And yet.

Additionally, I just found out, that I am a very bad judge of character. Like seriously bad. Or maybe there are just so many layers, false or otherwise, that obscures the reality from what we are able to see on the surface, or even after scratching it away slightly. How much can you know about a person, truly, in a small span of time? Its possible for some, but you can’t doubt the effort and time required to achieve that. But when you don’t, when you never have a chance to get deeper, what do you expect to really know.

I need to stop over analyzing.

Maybe its all a matter of timing. Lets hope this time round, I’m right there, at the right time, and so is he, whomever. Is it fate, or just happenstance. I don’t really believe in fate, I think we get what we do based on our decisions, our actions, and sheer luck.

I dragonboated & canoed last Saturday, and my arms are still aching. Well, considering the last time I actually did anything sporty proper was a long time ago, I feel quite proud of myself, for not drowning after falling out of the boats in fatigue.

Jeg Elsker Deg (yah-ee EL-sker dah-ee)

I love you. In Norwegian. Its said by about 5 million. Little facts from my ‘Wheels O Wisdom’ – ‘I Love You’ Translator from Miche (: Thanks dearie!

Norway. That’s where I’ll finding my way around gorgeous Fjords (pun intended) for a week, alone. I’m damn excited, and about the Sweden & Denmark parts too!! Just that my parents aren’t in the know about the alone part… and I don’t want to know their reaction when they do find out. I want to go hiking, cycling, kayaking, boating there! But I found out I can’t cycle along the slopes because there may be snow! OMG. SNOW! I have never personally seen snow before, exciting! I think I’m going to freeze there, I have a superbly low tolerance for cold, I am so dead.

“Maybe some women aren’t meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free till they find someone just as wild to run with them.”